Today I got out of the hospital. For my second time this year I hit a fever of 105.5 degrees. I was delusional and had insane visuals. Life is so short, one day you think you know it all, the next day something drastic happens and from basic instinct you're forced to change your views, your perspective just so you can justify what has happened and move on. I know nothing, all I can do is try my best. For years I have wondered why, why do I do what I do at school, what am I trying to do in life. What happened to that special group of friends that love each other unconditionally, and instead of going out to drink at bars, they go into grandmother's basement and conduct experiments that will one day change the world. What happened to catching eyes with that special person in your life in the coffee shop or out on a bike ride, where is that passion, ambition and motivation? Where is the unknown. This life that I am living, it's too cold, it's too empty, I need to find the magic in this world. I need to find that cave deep in the uncharted forests in the world that lead me to that one single moment of happiness, that one single moment of losing myself.
"Not all who wander are lost"
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