Thursday July 18th

I like to experience things. I like to put myself on the highest of mountains, and dive into the deepest of hells. I think all we have on this cold, cruel planet is perspective. When I took this class I was in a dark place, and I was ready to talk, I'm not sure if any of you remember the first day of class when I explained how I felt about this world, and the life I live. Unfortunately, I am not in the same mindset, I don't even remember how I felt or who i was that day and it makes me so sad. I am currently in this frenzied state of mind, and I feel so brainless, my thoughts are clouded, my mind is clouded, I can't give a good argument. I am not in the mindset I want to be, and this happens to me every 4-6 months. I wake up with new taste, new clothing choices, new food, new hobbies, new friends, and even though I can see something is changing intuitively, even though I understand what is changing and I can write it down on this blog post, I cannot change the positive and negative emotions that come with those changes. I don't know who I am, I don't know what are lies or what is truth anymore. I guess what I'm trying to say is, it'd be nice to have a mentor right about now.